Saturday, 10 November 2012 @ 07:36
hahahah -hacumm!!- *sorry i'm not that well today .___.
here i want to share a story :) its not related to anyone ^ ^ it's just a story. my name is sarah. this is my life from i entered a kindergarten. hahaha you guys maybe weird to hear this story. why in the world i'm telly you guys. actually i didn't have people to talk including my mom, my family. its not that i hate them. i love them the most :) it's just i know that they'll not understand me ^ ^ i just need for someone to hear and only hear it :) i have 4 brothers. since i was a kindergarten i am a cheerful person. i entered kindergarten when i was 3 years old. i was not forced to enter kindergarten in this stage. i wanted to. I had meet wonderful friends since then. i was happy, so happy although my mom and dad were busy with work. everyday i have to get ready to go to nursery at 6 in the morning or my mom will late for her work. at the same moment, for some reason i feel lonely but i didn't really care about that. man.. to remember my kindergarten life is awesome. pretty awesome. when i was in primary school, i felt excited! the first day was awesome. i was wondering why most children at my age cry in this important day. they should be happy because they'll learn new things. first day, my first friend in school and my last friend in life. she changed me. she though me to be strong. believes it or not, i am only loyal to this one person. not as lover but as a friend. a real friend. she a bit moody and tomboyish. i was influenced by her. i become tomboyish and independence. i only trust this one. we were in same class for 3 year until i was grade 3, 9 years old. but that year, one girl come to our school making me unbearable. i felt jealous. she kept our distance apart and that year i felt lonely but not at real jealousy stage. i'm mad, sulking and envious. but when the new girl had to moved away because of her sister illness i felt regret and sorry for her. i didn't have the chance to apologizing. the next year when i was in grade 4, 10 years old. for the first time i was separated with my best friend to different class. i didn't really know how to make new friend. a good, a real one. but luckily i manage to get used in the class. however every recess time i feel like been left out. no real friend gonna take me to go to canteen. so i had to be with my best friend but i felt like there was a wall between us. the wall is them, her new friends who always take for granted. every secret, every stories i've been pushed away from hearing it. but i keep walking behind them with my head down. they always walks besides each other and left no space for me to join in. so i've keep behind. the matters had been 2 years. the last year of primary school we got together again in same class but sadly one of her group friend was there too. its turns like 2 years ago again. and added by the wall. i feel terrible. no one here hearing my story. happy and sad. no one. i got fight with my classmates and she;s the fault. but why i'm the only one who always give in. i'm scared of the feeling of guilty and sorry. so i keep my mouth shut. one day i didn't go to canteen for recess, only in my mind is just "leave me alone!" but after recess the only one who find me is my bestfriend. she ask me i didnt reply. then she gave me a message on a paper and we chatted there. i told her that i've been left out. and she said that she though that i've got some problem and she can't talk with me as her friends in group were always in the way. and also she told me that i'm not just a friend *in malay its called kawan or rakan for regular friend. she told me that i'm her "sahabat" *in malay sahabat means a true friend. the last year had ended. and now i'm in high school. the first month was rejoice. but then i got a letter that i've invited to go to a special class in other school. the school is not too far. just like 10 km from my house. but i didn't want to go. however i cant resist my mom choice. i thought our friendship will end but until now she keep in touch with me. the most person that i call is her, my bestfriends. :) the end *for now XDD woahhh .___. so long my story = =" hope u guys didnt mad >.> -haacuumm!!- well the wrong grammar and spelling are exception because i'm not good in English >< but to review back .___. how lame my story XDD |